Its been 2 days since we got the news that our baby was no longer living and it still seems like a horrible nightmare. It doesn't make sense to me, we were so far along and our baby was measuring ahead this whole time, he or she seemed so strong. I feel like we are being punished but I can't figure out what for. Until we figure out how to cope with this we can't even start deciding what comes next.
Friday I have to have surgery to have the baby removed. There's a part of me that knows I can't really move on until I'm no longer carrying the baby but this baby has been a part of me for months and I'm so sad to say goodbye. I don't know how we are going to get thru the next few days.
Prayers! Oh so many prayers coming your way.
ReplyDeleteI am so heartbroken for you. So very very much so. I remember this pain. I had the same situation of the bad news in an ultrasound room...followed by no indication from my own body that it would miscarry on its own. And then days of waiting, while still carrying my babies (I had twins) until surgery to remove them. I so wish I could sit down and hold your hand and tell you that you will get through this. That life will have joy again...and have a good cry with you. I hate that any couple has to experience this. for me...the loss first made me afraid to go on...but then that turned to determination to overcome it and a deeper desire to be a parent. Take your time to grieve. And I do hope you come out on the other side with a renewed hope.
ReplyDeletemany hugs,
Karaleen