Saturday, October 27, 2012

Polyp free and ready to roll

I had my polypectomy yesterday and its been a relatively pain free experience.  I showed up at the surgery center and signed so many forms I could have gotten a mortgage, put on a fabulous surgical gown, complete with hairnets and socks with non-skid pads and got grilled repeatedly about what I had to eat last and when, seriously, I must have been asked by at least six people.  Our doctor stopped by, explained everything to us, asked some questions about the clinic we are using (we haven't seen him since we chose to pursue EA/DE) and was on his way.  I got wheeled back to the operating room, was given something to relax me and the next thing I know I'm in recovery with the worst case of cotton mouth I've ever had.  I was in and out for a while, I vaguely remember my husband coming and siting with me, I think the nurses filled him in on everything, gave him discharge instructions and let him hang out while I woke up.  They gave me a pain pill for the cramping and once I was able to dress myself and pee they let us go home.  I spent most of the afternoon sleeping off the anesthesia, had some family stop by with dinner and went back to bed.
The worst part about the whole thing is how achy my lungs are from the breathing tube,  I feel like I spent yesterday chain smoking.  I can't walk faster than a stroll without having to stop and catch my breath.  We walked thru an art festival downtown today and dh was constantly having to stop so I could sit and catch my breath.  By the time we got home I was beat, we ended up on the couch with me taking a two hour nap.  All in all its been a pretty painless (but expensive) detour.
Now we wait to match.  We've figured out that matching happens at the end of the month so there's a slim chance we will actually match next week which would mean a transfer the first or second week of December.  I'm gonna be bummed if it doesn't happen right away but realistically I think it might be a couple months to match.  Either way there's a great chance that this time next year we could have a baby (or two) at home!  We've been in touch with some other ladies using CC and to date 8 women have had transfers, 7 got pregnant and of those 7 unfortunatly one had a miscarriage, but regardless those are some impressive numbers!  Most of these women were on their first try which for me means knowing that the program has a built in back up plan for a bfn or loss and will take so much of the pressure off.

Saturday, October 13, 2012

This would be funny if it wasn't sad

We got a call from the clinic we are using Friday.  My nightmare scenario is coming true.  They want me to have the polyp I have removed.  I called my RE's office to see if they can do it, they will but they don't do it in their office, they do it under conscious sedation in the surgery center downstairs.  This means that it becomes part of our $2,500 deductible not a copay.  Hubby and I talked briefly about waiting until the first of the year so then, if we got pregnant quickly the delivery would come from the same deductible as the surgery but the fees for this clinic are going up another $2,700 at the first of the year so it won't save us any money.  So now I need to have a long talk with their care coordinator and basically get a commitment from them to pay this years rate if I'm ready to match by the end of the year.  I think dh would come unglued if we busted our ass to get all this testing done, rush to get this polyp removed then not get matched until January and have to pay the increased fee.  If he doesn't agree to that we are going to have to wait because we don't have an extra $5,00 which is what both the surgery and the rate increase will cost.
More than anything I feel like this is just adding insult to injury.  I mean, haven't we been thru enough?

Thursday, October 4, 2012

That was a little traumatic

I have been poked and prodded for three days straight.  I had an annual exam Tuesday and my ob-gyn's awesome staff was able to get me in for a mammogram the next day.  Plus, the donor embryo program we are working with sent an order to my RE's office for a saline ultrasound and they worked me in for that today.  All we have left is the therapy appointment next week.  Then, unless one of these tests come back abnormal, we are ready to match!  They say matching will happen within 6 months but from what I've seen it only takes a couple weeks.  Ours could take longer since we are looking for a mixed race embryo but I'm still hopeful the process will go quickly & we can start the new year pregnant.
As far as the testing this week goes the saline study was easily the most painful but the mammogram was definitely the most traumatic.  I didn't think anything of it when we scheduled it, I was even fine on the drive there but once I got there I realized it was a HUGE mistake not to ask hubby to come with me.  I haven't been back in this diagnostic center since the morning of last years surgery, they did my wire localization.  A wire localization is a procedure where they clamp your breast into a mammogram machine, numb it, and stick what felt like a pipe cleaner into your breast, using the mammogram images to guide the wire into the tumor.  This wire is used during the surgery to help guide the surgeon to the tumor.  Given why I was having this surgery I thought it was a good idea but it was unbelievably painful, I cried the whole way thru it.  Needless to say walking in there again didn't exactly give me the warm and fuzzies...  I had a quiet little panic attack in the waiting room filling out forms.  They got a little better with some text distractions from loved ones but still not my finest hour.  I was really hoping to come out of the mammogram not needing an ultrasound to get a better look at something (I've never not had to have an ultrasound before so I was looking forward to it) but this isn't how it went down.  The ultrasound tech had zero personality and wouldn't tell me what she was looking at.  I know from all my rounds of IUI what it looks like when an ultrasound tech is measuring something and this chick was measuring all kinds of stuff, on both sides!  She spent what felt like an hour but was probably more like 20 minutes ultra sounding my breasts and then just disappeared to talk to the radiologist while I sat there and waited, convinced I was dying.  She came back and explained I have two cysts and that they want me to come back in 6 months for another look but that I was fine.  They hand you a form when you leave that has four boxes on it 1) nothing/clear 2) probably benign 3) suspicious 4) catastrophe. I always end up in the #3 box and I was really hoping to hit the first box this time but instead I'm in the second box which is still improvement so ill take it.
But in 6 months, hubby is coming with me when I go back.