A giant step backwards

Not being able to TTC leaves a lot of empty time in my brain. I'm the kind of person that needs a project, someone who does do well without something occupying my time. Since we aren't TTC this cycle I've spent a lot of time doing alot of the Pinterest projects I've pinned. I've also been spending a lot of time watching the republican politicians try to out conservative each other and find a way to make their government so small it will fit inside my uterus. I don't usually wade into this stuff, I don't think I ever have on my blog before but what's going on now is dangerous.
I believe in pluralism, I think it's the key to what makes us so great. The simple idea that not only is it ok to have different ideas, it's celebrated. We're supposed to embrace our differences not vilify they. I don't have a problem with politicians, I don't have much use for them since they seldom accomplish anything and all of them seem to be more concerned with vanity and divisiveness that the individuals they are supposed to be representing but I don't have a problem with them. Until now. What these old men are talking about is a GIANT step backwards for women. Several states have legislation pending right now that would remove, limit, or severely impair a woman's right to IVF. These same bills would severly restrict the options of what can be done with remaining embryos after IVF.
These 'personhood' amendments are, in my opinion Act One of the assult on womanhood. You don't need to have experience with infertility to know that limiting choice thru law is not small government, it's anti-women. I have beliefs based on my faith and my morals and guess what, I think those beliefs are guidelines on how I live my life, not justification for imposing myself on others. Religion shouldn't be used as a weapon. I suggest you go to resolve.org and see if you live in a state with some of this pending legislation and remember, if you don't say anything against it you are effectively supporting it.

Nope

It's true, bad things come in three's. My three are: we had a car accident (everyone's fine, but the car... Not so much), my sister's in the hospital, and I'm not pregnant (again). My RE is making have a 'rest cycle' so I'm out till late April but that's ok, I need a little time to be a wife, sister, friend, daughter and not have my every thought go to babies.

I picked a really bad time to give up alcohol for lent....

I'm weak!

Today marks 7dpiui and I'm going a little crazy. I don't know why but it never fails, my willpower crumbles right about now. True to form, I'm at it again. I spent my allotted hour of crazy googling to searching 8dpo accuracy odds. I told myself that Saturday (12dpo) would be the day I'd test and it was easy to stick to that last week but it's gonna be a llllooooooonnnnnggggggg week. I argue with myself 'but what if a test would already show positive now, you're just torturing yourself extra days for no reason' yeah it ain't logical but the devil in my brain is loud and convincing.
I've been having crazy vivid dreams lately and achy, swollen boobs, im sleeping like narcolepsy girl and have had a headache since last friday but I wouldn't read much into it, I've already looked into it and these are all thanks to the progesterone suppositories I've been taking any not likely bfp symptoms. It seems cruel to give a TTC lady something that will make her feel pregnant but whatever, I guess even if I didn't have to take the progesterone my head would give me phantom symptoms to screw with me. At least this way I can blame my RE.