Turning Points

For some reason we all look at new years as an opportunity for a fresh start. Somehow, the date shifting from December 31st to January 1st offers a cleanse that going from April 8th to April 9th doesn't. It's a psychological cleanse, an opportunity to shake off all that old year before baggage and start over. It marks the comeback of hope.

This year I have laser focus. I have an intentional, honest, achievable goal. My goal is to stay focused on what I do have. I am blessed in so many wonderful ways. I gain nothing by dwelling on what I don't have so now, when I start to get frustrated about a struggle I remind myself one of any of the wonderful things I do have.

I don't usually make resolutions on New Years. I have to many memories of drunken promises that had the shelf life of milk. But this goal, it's different, I've been so stressed about so many things but what does belaboring it accomplish? Stress breeds more stress, it's a trip down the rabbit hole. But if that's true wouldn't the opposite also be true? Does happiness breed happiness? I'm performing a social experiment with myself as the first test case.

So far it's been a rousing success. Professionally this has been an exceptional two weeks. One of my projects came in second place in a national design competition, I've been promoted, I recently found out I passed my licensing exam and I just negotiated a healthy raise.

More results later. Stay positive!

Allow me to get on my soapbox for a minute

I know you all have heard me rant about this before but seriously, where are all the black sperm donors? We're looking for a new donor at our RE's request. Our only guidelines are that they be black and anonymous, we are not interested in contact down the road, hubby will be this little ones dad, period. I've been all over the Internet again and I've found 11 donors that meet both our requirements. No that's not a typo, I found 11. Hubby wants him to be at least 6' tall so that's probably going to eliminate about half of them so I guess choosing will be easy (silver lining). The other thing I noticed was there's such a dramatic difference in price. They range from $440 to $800 for one vial plus shipping. They all seem to have the same guarantee so I've agreed to get long profiles of my top three and let hubby choose from there without me telling him the cost, he wants to make an unbiased choice. The goal is to be ready next cycle, we'll see if we can get this taken care of by then, I've got about 3 or 4 weeks. But really, we have maybe 5 options, does that sound right? I pray we don't end up feeling like we are picking from the best of what's available, I want us to love the profile we pick, I think we deserve that. Ok, I'm off my soapbox now.

I was going to get on here and blog about the lovely job hubby did picking Christmas presents. We did our late Christmas on New Years this year and he did great. Instead, I'm so annoyed by this I'm going to have to put that off till next time....

I hope you all had a lovely new years, more later