Embryo adoption???

We had an appointment with our RE to discuss what's next since this clearly isn't working.  Before going in I spent a little while on the Internet looking for options to ask about and came across something called embryo adoption.  I've done just a tiny bit of Internet research on this, enough to know it could be a plausible option for us.
After talking for a little while about why IUI didn't seem to be working our RE started talking about IVF.  I asked out my probably egg quality issue and he was pretty blunt.  My odds of IVF working were probably somewhere between 10 & 20 percent.  That really doesn't seem to be high enough to justify the expense.  I asked him about embryo adoption and he was instantly supportive of the idea.  They don't keep an embryo bank at their practice but would do everything from pre and post transplant monitoring to even doing the transfer if where we get an embryo from would ship.  He's also willing to talk to the bank/agency doing the match to review egg quality so he can approve them.  I feel like this is our next step if we keep going.
I say if we keep going because my husband didn't ask a single question while we were there.  I talked to him a little on the way out (we drove separately) and couldn't get an answer from him on his thoughts.  I don't know if he's still processing or he's trying to find a gentle way to tell me he's not feeling this option.  I guess we'll talk more tonight.
In the mean time I left work early to pray on this a little (and spend some time on the Internet).

Crying at the movies

I'm not a super emotional (outwardly) girl, well, unless I'm hopped up on fertility drugs but that's another story.  But that didn't stop me from crying my way thru The Odd Life of Timothy Green this weekend.  Hubby picked the movie (not sure what he was thinking) and I spent most of it, especially the end, trying to hide the fact that I was sitting there losing my shit while he enjoyed the movie.
The good thing about seeing a movie you can relate to is you feel less alone.  The bad thing is it brings it all front and center.  I spent the movie coming to terms with the idea that maybe our family won't be completed by me but a kind, giving person who honors us with the task of raising their child as our own.
So, if you're struggling with completing your family you may want to wait on seeing this till it comes out of video, or bring a lot of tissues.

I'll take 'people who aren't pregnant' for $2,000 Alex

Well I guess convincing myself we weren't pregnant helped buffer the disappointment because I made it thru the day without having to run in the bathroom and cry at work.  I was able to compartmentalize my feelings and enjoy a nice anniversary dinner with my husband.  We talked about the disappointments (all of them) and what plan 'B' (really plan 'M' but who's counting) is going to be.  This isn't working.  We just had our 5th or 6th iui and that was after countless tries at home.  It's been 3 1/2 years. I've given him 3 choices: IVF, adoption, or giving up.   I presented them pretty equally with all their pros and cons, I asked him to spend a couple days thinking about it.  We'll talk after he marinates on it a couple days.
In the mean time I'm going to enjoy a much deserved cocktail, because I can.