Just marking time

We go to our ob a week from today to get another look at out little kumquat (by then she'll be a fig). I feel like its been forever since we've seen him or her.  Not a whole lot has changed, my symptoms still come and go, I'm still bloated and tired, and my butt is still sore from the shots.  We have 13 shots left, then we'll be 12 weeks and I suppose I can exhale a little.  Because of my age and having lost a child to premature birth I don't think I'll ever really relax but I do want to enjoy this pregnancy and not spend the whole time worried.  I've started a private Pinterest board for nursery ideas and I bought my fist pair of maternity jeans since I've outgrown a lot of my pre-pregnancy clothes thanks to all the bloat.  Hubby and I have started talking about names, we've had our girl name for a while but can't find a boy name we both love.
Funny story... I got nauseous on the way to work so I pulled over.  It didnt pass so I opened my door to puke.  Apparently a cop saw me do this and stopped.  I tried to explain to the man (at 6:45 in the morning!) that I wasn't drunk, just pregnant but since I'm not really showing yet he didnt believe me and wouldn't let me leave until he breathalyzed me. I guess when your day starts like that its all uphill from there.

Yuck!

My food aversions seem to come and go, for a while I couldn't be anywhere near meat but now it's not a problem.  But, after yesterday I don't care how good it sounds I'm not eating guacamole again until after this baby comes.  Guacamole is the last thing in the world you want to throw up.
Hubby thinks this was hilarious by the way.....

8w4d

We had another follow up scan with our RE and met with the doctor.  We are 8weeks and 4 days pregnant and baby looks perfect.  He or she is actually measuring a day ahead of schedule and has a heart rate in the 180's which is awesome.  We've been released from our RE and are going to follow up with my ob/gyn.  She'll also do a referral to a high risk ob and we'll see them both.  As of right now I don't have another appointment until 2/5 but they are going to try to get me in sooner if they can.  I'm not sure I can go another 3 weeks without seeing our little raspberry.

Phew

We went back to our RE's office to make sure our remaining blueberry was continuing to progress and the loss of their sibling wasn't affecting him or her and the scan went great.  Our little one is measuring exactly where they should be and has a great heartbeat.  I compared last weeks pictures to this week and she seems so much bigger now.  Last week there was just this little sliver of person next to the yolk sac, now there's a tiny human there.  It's really incredible to see the progress.
There's still a little bit of fluid in my uterus so I'm hoping they'll let me go back next week for another look to make sure that's resolved (plus I want to see him again!) but I don't know if that's going to happen or if I have to wait till 10 weeks (boo!), we'll see.  For now I'm trying to put the scariness of last week behind me and focus on this little life.  It kinda felt like I held my breath for a week and yesterday I finally go to exhale.
Next week we grow from blueberry to raspberry :-)

Scary 24 hours

Our New Years started apart from each other because hubby had to work (boo!) it also started by learning our cat doesn't like fireworks and gunfire and will respond to both by sitting on your head when you're sound asleep.  Believe it or not, January 1 started a lot better than it ended.  I sent the hubby out to watch some football yesterday so I could get some rest because I've been battling a cold and the pregnancy already has me super sleepy. I woke up around 6 not feeling well, went to the bathroom and found my worst nightmare, blood, a lot of it.  I freaked out and called hubby to come take me to the ER.  Because I was scared I asked him to take me to the closest hospital which was a mistake, it's the downtown hospital and more suited to drug overdoses and schizophrenia than pregnancy problems.  By the time I got there I was bleeding really badly and they couldn't understand why I didn't want to sit in the waiting room.  It took 3 sticks and two nurses to get blood (one of whom wanted to talk about how her preacher told her and her fiancé they can't have sex until the marriage but she really didnt think she was gonna be able to do that, really lady?) I went off to ultrasound and was scanned by a tech who wouldn't tell me anything but spent 20 minutes scanning me.  I got taken back down to the emergency room and they tried to start an iv.  Two sticks later they had an iv line they could give me fluids with but couldn't get blood out of.  Twenty minutes later they needed more blood so I got stuck again (5th time) for that one.  The doctor came in after an excruciating hour and told us what the ultrasound showed was two embryos but on,y one was developing appropriately and had a heartbeat, plus I have developed a fibroid.  They called my local RE's office and the doctor on called told me he suspected we lost the twin and that the one that still had a heartbeat was a good sign but I needed to come in today for another ultrasound to see if the one baby was holding on.  I didn't get much sleep last night and spent a lot of time crying.  We went in this morning and had one of our favorite techs do our scan.  The one baby is still holding on, looking fabulous with perfect measurements and heartbeat and they don't see the other embryo at all now.  So, as of right now we are still pregnant with one of the babies and I'm taking the rest of the week off to rest.  I go in a week from today for a follow up ultrasound.  Hopefully by then the bleeding will stop (it has slowed WAY down) and the baby will be fine.
What a scary way to start the year.